I became frustrated about something. In my frustration, I
said things, that I wish I had not said to people I did not mean to hurt. I
feel I 'marred' my testimony to them, 'if I ever had one in the first place'
and feel bad about it.
I feel like a failure, for this is not the first time this
has happened. A failure, as a person, a friend and as a witness for Christ.
I told myself, I should just stay away from people and then
I would not take a chance of doing that again. I am a loner, anyway, so I
should just stay home and never leave the house.
But, I cannot, for I like to go to church, I need to shop and
want to go see my relatives and friends.
What do I do?
I sat to read my Bible and turned to Psalms, reading my
highlighted portions and it reminded me of my refuge and strength. No matter
what happens in my life, God is there for me.
But, I try to let Him lead in my life, so, why did He let me
say those things and act the way I did? I don't know why. However, I have to go
on from today and continue to trust Him and not be afraid. And if I let it keep
me from people, then the enemy has won! I do not want that to happen.
I do not say this for people to 'pat me on the back', etc. I
say it so others can be helped in a similar situation, my dear friends in the Lord. God bless you.
Psalms 51
2 Wash me throughly
from mine iniquity, and cleanse me from my sin.
3 For I acknowledge
my transgressions: and my sin is ever before me.
4 Against thee, thee
only, have I sinned, and done this evil in thy sight:
10 Create in me a
clean heart, O God; and renew a right spirit within me.
11 Cast me not away
from thy presence; and take not thy holy spirit from me.
12 Restore unto me
the joy of thy salvation; and uphold me with thy free spirit.
13 Then will I teach
transgressors thy ways; and sinners shall be converted unto thee.
17 The sacrifices of God are a broken spirit: a broken and a
contrite heart, O God, thou wilt not despise.
Psalms 55
17 Evening, and
morning, and at noon, will I pray, and cry aloud: and he shall hear my voice.
Psalms 56
3 What time I am
afraid, I will trust in thee.
4 In God I will
praise his word, in God I have put my trust; I will not fear what flesh can do
unto me.
9 When I cry unto
thee, then shall mine enemies turn back: this I know; for God is for me.
10 In God will I
praise his word: in the LORD will I praise his word.
11 In God have I put
my trust: I will not be afraid what man can do unto me.
Psalms 57
1 Be merciful unto me, O God, be merciful unto me: for my soul
trusteth in thee: yea, in the shadow of thy wings will I make my refuge, until
these calamities be overpast.
2 I will cry unto God
most high; unto God that performeth all things for me.
Psalms 61
1 Hear my cry, O God; attend unto my prayer.
2 From the end of the
earth will I cry unto thee, when my heart is overwhelmed: lead me to the rock
that is higher than I.
3 For thou hast been
a shelter for me, and a strong tower from the enemy.
4 I will abide in thy
tabernacle for ever: I will trust in the covert of thy wings.
Psalms 62
1 Truly my soul waiteth upon God: from him cometh my
salvation.
2 He only is my rock
and my salvation; he is my defence; I shall not be greatly moved.
3 How long will ye
imagine mischief against a man? ye shall be slain all of you: as a bowing wall
shall ye be, and as a tottering fence.
4 They only consult
to cast him down from his excellency: they delight in lies: they bless with
their mouth, but they curse inwardly.
5 My soul, wait thou
only upon God; for my expectation is from him.
6 He only is my rock
and my salvation: he is my defence; I shall not be moved.
7 In God is my
salvation and my glory: the rock of my strength, and my refuge, is in God.
8 ¶ Trust in him at
all times; ye people, pour out your heart before him: God is a refuge for us.
Psalms 57: 5 & 11 "Be thou exalted, O God, above the
heavens; let thy glory be above all the earth."